Dear God,
I’ve written a couple of letters on this here blog and at this season in my life I feel that it is most important that I write this one for you. Over the past few months we have gotten closer. No, I haven’t attended church more or even read your word more often but I’ve learned how to cling to you. We talk daily. I start my day with you. You are the most amazing constant in my life. I’ve grown up surrounded by you. I thank you for that.
I thank you for blessing me with a grandmother so deeply rooted in your love that I had no choice but to walk with you. I thank you for blessing her with a husband that shares that same passion for you. Those two probably don’t know that they laid the most incredible foundation in which I could always find my way back to you. It’s rare to find people that live your word so genuinely. Thank you for allowing me to always see that in them. I also, thank you for the most incredible parents a girl could ask for. Not many people get the kind of love that I receive on a regular based. You really hooked me up with that one.
Sometimes it gets hard. Really. Really. Hard. But in those times I’ve found that I can count on you to speak to me the clearest. And before I move on let’s pause on that for a second. What it’s like to hear your voice loud and clear. It always left me a little baffled growing up when people would say things like, “ He came to me as a voice in the night” or “ God told me to (insert whatever miraculous act of kindness here)”. But now it makes complete sense. When you speak to me it comes in the form of strong feelings, a wave of emotion, and certainty in the choice that needs to be made or an act that needs to be done. I hear you the clearest when it comes to giving to others. I thank you that that is the purpose that you shine your light on. I can’t imagine a life better spent than one giving back to your children. And Lord, I know that we’ve moved on from this, but forgive me for considering buying a swimsuit over donating to people living your command for their lives. I was wrong for that one.
Oh Lord, we have been through quite a lot in the realm of relationships. Thank you for being the one I could run to through it all. What I thank you most for is showing me that you are my source of strength and my stability. I put that pressure on family, friends, and one particular boyfriend and that’s not their job. You are my help. My relationships have grown now that I’ve shifted that weight off of everyone’s shoulders. And our relationship has blossomed because it is solely you that I turn to. Now they are supporting actors to your lead role. Just as it should be.
As I embark on this new journey Lord I thank you. You have answered my prayers and exceeded anything I could have imagined for my life. You have taught me to pray through my storm and now I am faced with the most magnificent rainbow. I pray that you continue to help me find the peace in every situation. I know that with you I can conquer anything. Lord, this is my time. Keep me lost in you. Continue to hold me close. I love you more than anything.
Faithfully,
Akia.